A blog post, an open look at me.
It’s difficult to smile sometimes.
I like to put on a bold front; I try to talk about the positives on my show. I try to look for a good thing every day. I try to make it look like everything is normal with me. Most of the time, it works. Most of the time I can plaster on a forced smile, laugh and joke about everything going on with me, and try to ignore everything in my head. Anything that doesn’t fit the picture can be explained away as a bad day
at work, or a headache.
It’s never that simple though.
This stupid pandemic started a domino train of a horrible year for me. My school was thrown into disarray. My job at the time was getting more and more demanding and soul sucking, both from management and the customers I had to deal with. The worst thing happened. My dream internship, the one I had been applying to for three years, the one I had finally been accepted to, was ripped away. I felt completely alone. Miserable. Heartbroken.
I know I’m not the only one who felt like this, who feels like this. I don’t know how to make things better, I just have to believe that things will get better. They have to. I don’t know how to end this off, I’ve been trying to write this out for weeks and I’m still turning it in late because I couldn’t figure it out. I wanted to talk about dealing with this situation, but the truth is I’m just trying to hold on right now. I’m
holding on the fact that this is going to get better. I don’t know how it’ll get better, it just will.
Everything is going to be better. We’re almost though this mess. Things will be better.
It makes it a bit easier to smile.
Written by Hailey Schimpf
Hailey Schimpf is a musical and Disney nerd who somehow managed to convince the radio station into letting her do a show. That show would be Hailey’s Happenings. For the past two years it has showcased songs from musical theater, Disney movies, and more regular music hits from the 80s to today. It’s also a great place to chill out and relax as she talks about whatever’s going on between the music. Once people are allowed back on campus again, she’ll once again broadcasting live in the studio every Wednesday at 5pm.